transparent colors
of cheap glory
descending upon a vessel of
defensive ditches in disguise -
wafting through
windows, left ajar and
little arctic willows
dying
my relationship with my own mind
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on late summer days my thoughts are like
a million misty drops of morning dew
covering my world with cues that
days are getting shorter - and again,
the sun begins to fade
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and in the evening when clouds look like dipped in shades of pink and
street lamps’ light brightens
dyed and dripping background strokes
it’s leaving me in awe - -
and my eyes work up a storm
reflections of the sun captured in exhalation
and there’s a change of altitude
when azure eyes smile with ease
air pressure decreases and oxygen drops
trapped in soapy bubbles but
bouncing on the water‘s surface
allowing us to bend the truth
through simultaneously existing opposites
my body is missing pieces
stains of red patterns on my hands
not dark enough to withstand
my next breath
as the air i inhale slowly burns my lungs,
unable to cool down
my steamy mind, levitating in the clouds
do you think the pale white ceiling rips apart because of my empty-pressured stare
or because of too many fluid years?
dust is rising and thoughts begin to spin -
expanding the heat of my heart is
de-rooting everything that gets too close
to this fickle-minded thing
i’m trapped in
snowflakes glowing in fairy lights -
being of two minds and
three wavering nights
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metallic tongues tracing memories,
reminiscing about things we could be
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liquor on ice, cheeks left ablush
holding my breath for - just long enough -
frozen reflections stretching the days
visceral sorrow echoes in liminal space
can’t wait
to look into your eyes again -
my heart drops when i think about
how the sunlight makes them sparkle
like sweet water’s surface
and all i wanna do is dive right in
and swim around in your mind
surrounded by crystal clear water
i wanna meet with your thoughts under the rocks on the ocean’s bed
and swirl up the sand to free your carefully covered feelings
you’re blinking back tears, a single drop gets tangled up in your lashes, leaks through and falls down to your lips
so i can get a taste of what it would be like -
to live within your diamond eyes
flying trees
​
steady as those hills with their lush green coat
do i lay here now, waiting for nothing
outside clouds get pushed out of my view
only for new ones to appear on the blue
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i said your eyes had that color
romanticized your flaws
used those blades as justice’s claws
but there were
so many trees that the sun couldn’t reach
my cheeks -
to make my freckles sprout
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instead
big words and loud voices
sugarcoated lies and your roguish smile
but my chest way too narrow
my breath way too shallow
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but when i realized what was long due
i peeled you off the peachy floor
and I picked myself up too